The Floor is LAVA!!!!!!

So last night Franklin and I were wrestling and I asked him if he locked the door and he said no so he started to get up to go lock the door and I didn't want him to leave so I said, "BUT, the floor is lava!!!" he got up and locked the door anyway. Then he came back and I was about to leave and go get something to drink and before I got off the bed Franklin says, "The floor is lava!" so screamed and got to the middle of the bed! Then Franklin started kissing me, and I said, "NOOOO THE LAVA MONSTER WANTS ME AS HIS LAVA BRIDE!!!"  Franklin let me go and said defensively, "fine, I'll give you guys the juicer..."(we got two as wedding presents)  I replied with, "You're the lava monster, dumbass!(jokingly)"
He understood... So the lava monster kept "attacking" me. And I kept attempting to get to the "steping basket" which was our laundry basket but the lava monster was to scorching hot and strong. hehehe. I am pretty sure I never want to grow up.

The lava monster and his lava bride...

It's a New Day

It is a new day. I woke up knowing that I was going to go full fledged into my diet. I really want to be healthy so yesterday I bought lots of fruits, yogurts, and wheats. I know I am going to work hard, and with that in mind, I feel that it is a good day to change anything I don't like. I am going to begin to be more positive and look around at the little things and appreciate them. I am going to be strong in my beliefs and even stronger in my other convictions. I am going to be more productive and mentally active. I am not going to be afraid of anyone, or not say what I believe or what I know just because I am afraid it will hurt another's feelings. These are pretty big goals to begin just today, but I just feel like today is the day.

Is it bad that I can't stop bloggging?

I don't know why, but I was thinking about this poem today.

One of my wishes is that those dark trees,

So old and firm they scarcely show the breeze,

Were not, as ’twere, the merest mask of gloom,

But stretched away unto the edge of doom.

I should not be withheld but that some day

Into their vastness I should steal away,

Fearless of ever finding open land,

Or highway where the slow wheel pours the sand.

I do not see why I should e’er turn back,
Or those should not set forth upon my track 10

To overtake me, who should miss me here

And long to know if still I held them dear.

They would not find me changed from him they knew—

Only more sure of all I thought was true.

R.F.

So, I have kind of began my United States history book reading thing. I thought it would be fitting to start off with the U.S. Constitution and Declaration of Independence book that I ranted about for a while. Its a very quick read. It's very powerful and moving and I believe that every American should read these documents and know their rights and their history. My next book is Alexis de Tocqueville 'Democracy in America'. So far it is very interesting to read an outsiders point of view. He talks about how democracy lead up to America and the reasons why America formed a democracy rather than any other form of government. Its pretty long and I am at a semi-boring part so it might take me a little bit to read.

Alright, I should probably be doing something more productive than blogging. I think I shall wash my car. I bought some new wax stuff that will make it really nice and shine. I think I need some new tires as well and I want to make them a little bigger than the stock tires cause right now the tires look too small for the car and it looks ugly to me.

I am a real naughty girl...

How could you say no to a face like that???? HA! I still make this face... Mostly to Franklin to make him get something for me... and I say, "I'm parched..." My absolute favorite is when he was trying to sleep and he was half awake and I kept saying, "I'm bored, come play with me..." and he would just grunt. Then I would touch  his lips and say, "yum yum yum yum." HA HA! In addition to cracking his knuckles (which he hates). I am such a naughty girl.

When people ask Franklin when we are thinking about having kids he says he already has one.... hahah. Or the fact that he literally has to force me to take a shower. heehee. I mean I will take showers on my own but I think its pretty darn funny when he wrestles me to make me take a shower and I am just running around the house trying to keep my clothes on. Is this what married life is suppose to be like???

Has anyone in this family ever even seen a chicken?

This picture makes me laugh so much. I think that is what I need right now. Something to laugh and smile about. I am super tired and had a kinda rough dissapointing day today. I just feel very frustrated with work lately. Lets just say if this chicken-----> laid an egg and it broke and there were eggshells all over the place, I would be walking on them... barefoot. I don't know whats going on with this "chicken" theme...

I feel like I haven't hung out with Franklin in forever, by ourselves or anything.

UGh I just feel frustrated. I know I shouldn't feel frustrated. This is my world and I want to enjoy it because there are too many people who don't or can't. This is my world I get to create and it belongs to me. I don't understand how people can be so mean and so kniving. I don't know why people would want to play games behind your back just to make you suffer. I feel like they attack me because I am happy. But, it just makes me want to be even happier to shove it in their miserable faces.

So I am happy.

I am going to go to Target and buy something nice.

And when Franklin comes home I will make him take me on a yogurt date

and I will enjoy my yogurt date

And I am going to make him laugh.

.......lwlweafjaaewa......

(left out some stuff for you)

: D

I can't think of a clever, witty title..

Have you ever held something so gently and so carefully that if you were to move hastily or hold too tightly that it would disintegrate into pieces. I decided to make a run to an old time bookstore on main street and I was looking for a copy of the Federalist (but they were a little too expensive) and I found an almost 100 year old copy of the Constitution/Declaration of Independence/ The Ordinance of 1787/ and the articles of confederation combo book. I felt so sad because most Americans don't even know what is in the constitution. I just kept thinking of a project we did for government class. We took a amendment out of the constitution and had people sign it as if we wanted to pass it today. No body could identify that it was already a law and something that already defined our country for a few hundred years. only a small minority would get suspicious and say, "don't we already have something like this?" and only a very very small minority could actually place what its from. So fighting off ignorance I bought it and read it very carefully. HA! the only upsetting part is that it is so old that the amendments end at Woman's Suffrage (1920 ish). I just feel as if this isn't important to people anymore. I almost felt like Eli in "The Book of Eli" except I had the last copy the constitution. I hope that people have that spark in them to read and to learn more about their rights and what these men put up on the line to ensure that we had life, liberty and property. (note I say property and not the pursuit of happiness, because it was originally suppose to be property but they did not want to cause a rift between the states due to the slavery issue) Touche.

Franklin and I are almost done with this babysitting(minus the babies) gig. I am tired its hard to not be in your own house and waking up at 6 with not your own kids. I am excited though Franklin got a motorcycle. He was kinda browsing craigslist and looked it up and it was only 300 bucks and very nice. Franklin told me that he would get this one and I told him to get it... he was like "really?....really?" haha he was so excited though. He works so hard, he deserves something he really wants. Staying "home" all day pretty much sucks... PS.

I need to run around or something. The not eating so badly isn't too too too difficult it just needs lots of restraint. The hardest part is the running around and exercising.

"It's not the critic who counts, not the man who points out how the strong man stumbled, or when the doer of deeds could have done better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena; whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs and comes short again and again; who knows the great enthusiasms, the great devotions and spends himself in a worth cause; who at the best, knows in the end the triumph of high achievement; and who at the worst if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who know neither victory or defeat."  Theodore Roosevelt 

The Joys of Dieting

.... well there are none.

I began to scrapbook our wedding pictures. Its pretty fun!
And I know my best friend will love this... I bought Coal Miner's Daughter. I am so excited to watch it. I have been in a very very country mood.

I can't believe how determined I  am to loose some pounds. I have never been this gung-ho before. Usually all my other diets last for about a day... I have been on this one for about a week. I just feel like everyone is against me on this.

Here is a poem one of my best friends wrote me. I love him sooo much he is one of the funniest people I know and he is such a sweet soul. Anyway, he wrote this for me at my bridal shower...

"Forever seems long if you look to the end 

But not long enough if you look where you've been

Cause when you reach the end and the journey is done

 thats when you'll see that its all just begun."

                                       -L. Durand

Mixed Philosophies

To see your world in a grain of sand

And Heaven in a wild flower;

To hold infinity in the palm of your hand

An eternity in an hour.

I don't quite know exactly how I feel at this moment. I have a small headache and i am cooking some baked potatoes for the kids' dinners. I was reading a friend's blog. I knew her in middle school and high school. I was actually thinking about her for a few days. In middle school I used to be very eccentric. However, believe it or not I have calmed down in my old, married age. I remember we had a class together and I don't think she liked me very much. However, as we got to high school she turned very sweet. As I read some of her blog I felt funny. I felt like I did about two to one year ago. I feel as if my whole philosophy on life has changed since then. I don't know if it has been for the better, worse, or indifference.

"The Violets in the mountains have broken the rocks."

I used to be very peaceful and very serene, yet now I feel very not angry but kinda of, not so happy go lucky. More reasonable and rational to the world... I don't know where I am going with this. Maybe I could have a philosophical test. I will take up one philosophy and take up another and see which makes me happier, which makes more sense. Then I will perhaps make a decision. Or perhaps do some blending of the two. Today I will start with my old philosophy, maybe not "today" but right now. My old philosophy was pretty much being like the old turtle on kung fu panda. Ha. As I watched it today it just made me think a little about the past and how I had changed. 

  "From Ignorance lead me to truth,

From darkness lead me to light,

From death lead me to Immortality."

Oh history, how I love you.

On Tuesday a while ago Franklin and I both had the day off for some odd reason. However, we both decided to run around and go shopping and have fun and of course we went to one of our favorite stores Bookman’s. We went in there and I asked these two men about mid twenties where they kept the federalist papers.(history, political science, ect?)  “is that the title?” “What’s it about?”  I am in one of the most liberal stores I could possibly be and they are telling me they have no idea what it is?! So I told them oh its just written by our founding fathers about how the government was to be designed and outlined the constitution nothing that’s real important today. No wonder the government is how it is today.

Eventually we discovered that it was in the history section and as I was looking at all the history books I started to become excited about everything. And I was thinking… “Wouldn’t it be cool to learn and go though history and then read about major events?!” For example I would probably start at the revolution and I would have to read the constitution and I would read the federalists papers and then I would read a biography about George Washington, Alexander Hamilton, Benjamin Franklin, and just specialize in these characters and events. I would continue on and then I would read about Andrew Jackson, Andrew Carnegie, The Teapot Dome scandal and just specialize in each aspect that has shaped America. So I am going to try. I would like to do it chronologically but I think I would get bored and feel trapped with those rules and end up falling short… way short. So I am just going to read as I go. Franklin and I have so many books so so so many. We have one about George Washington, Andrew Carnegie, Franklin and I both have lots of war novels. We have Undaunted courage about Lewis and Clark. So I will just work my way though them buying more when I see them on sale and such. Could it be so bad spending lots of money on books???? 

oh today...

I felt very productive today. Franklin left for work at like six in the morning, I couldn't even wake up to make him some lunch. But I love when he tucks me in and kisses me goodbye. (even when I am half asleep with dragon breath) I woke up and read a little of clan of the cave bear (trying to find a specific part). Then I started to clean. I put all the laundry away and picked up all of my bobbypins that were scattered around the house. I made the bed and completely cleaned out the vaccuum cleaner. I windexed the garbage pail thingy down and windexed the tables. I am doing the laundry and everything. But when I came to my mom's house to do the laundry I just kapooted and just wanted to sit and be on facebook and to blog. I really don't like to do a lot before work. I like to sit and relax and get mentally ready but I rerally should run a few more errands before tonight. Starting tonight, Franklin and I are going to be watching a family friends kids while they go on a trip. We are going to stay at their house for the week. I am kinda nervous. I don't have kids and I was the youngest, and I have never really been around kids. They all have thier own lives and agendas and everything. I think it will be fine though, since they are older they can pretty much fend for themselves. It weird how much life you can see and remember through a blog. I was looking at my sister in laws blog from when she first started. before I even knew her and looking at when she started her life as a mom and just everything. I like it cause its a part of history that can never really be lost.

Just a few of my favorite things....

I love these they are all so unique and individual they were bought for Franklin and I after we were married by his parents. (Franklin is part Russian) They were hand made by some Russian man... they are super cute. Love them.

   This is my sewing machine. I am still trying to figure out how to work it all out me and my sewing machine are going to make great things together. I made two baby blankets on it so far (not for me) and I found some more material for me to make a pretty pretty very indie blanket. Good times will be had by all.

This is a mask Franklin and I got in Long Beach on our honeymoon. I didn't like all the girly ones with feathers and such, turned out those were more expensive anyways. But I love it and it is one of my favorite things in our home.

 This is a picture that Franklin had and brought with him. It was his Grandpapas and I just love it. It is pretty much the coolest two dimesional art we have.  I love the boats and the overcasty look. In other words if there was a fire, I would probably save this first.

No, these are just rocks you insensitive bastard. These are our love rocks. Ha. it all started when I found a pretty smooth stone at MCC and I gave it to Franklin (all while we were dating) and I was really suprised because he kept it. Even after a year I found it in his room. I also had a love rock, I believe he got me one. Once we were moving in togther after we had gotten married I was putting out a whole bunch of gemstones and purple rocks and very pretty stones and then I pulled out a kind of plain and homely rock and he was like whats that one?!?! (repulsed) and I said, "thats our love rock you insensitive bastard" hahah it was funny not in a mean. But these rocks are from our honeymoon and I kept picking them up when we were on the beach and they were all the same weight, shape and size. Yet, they were all different colors so this is our pile of love rocks.

My most favorite is my lover.

That is all.

thoughts

I am so excited that Kellie (my new sister) had her baby and everyone is healthy and fine. I am so excited to see them all grow together and I am even more excited to see what kind of personality this little one has!

I am tired and sore.
My body is aching, Franklin and I went hiking up to Flat Iron. I could have sworn I was going to die. I felt like I was. Its upsetting because it shows to me how out of shape I have become. Hopefully Franklin and I can become more active like we played tennis. (not just wii tennis).

Is it bad that I think about babies and want them and then don't want to become another stereotype and then I don't want any?

I am undecided about that aspect in my life.

I super cleaned our house. I love finding little scraps and remnants of  Franklin's life before me. Sometimes I forget how gentle he is. He is such a sweet soul and it reminds me what I love about him. He is such a good writer. I wish I could see into his brain and that he could tell me every desire of his soul.

Its funny how you can look at a blog or a journal of someones, and the years go by so fast and you can see how someones grows or deteriorates. I like reading the blog of my old friend. She is such a tortured soul. I wish she could find herself. I feel like she is in a self destroying cyclical life. I wish I could have helped her, but how can you help without getting too dragged in yourself? I feel it is a waste when someone so smart and so promising is so bored and wastes their mind. who does drugs to hide from reality.